11/1/26 – Rest Day
Day of rest and recoup. Needed a day to try to get back to baseline.
My body and gut sure are making some waves! The ability to eat a slice of pizza again and not feel like absolute garage was a big win last night! It’s funny how these small things can sometimes make a huge difference in how we feel!
Also, these compression warm up pants are making my legs feel substantial today! Quads are livened up! While up in the standing frame I’m feeling everything ‘up and ‘at em’!!!
Laying prone for 20min before bed is the move! Let’s work this in every day now!
11/2/26 – Trial & Error
Big consolidation morning while wearing the compression pants overnight!
Push / pull — anterior / posterior? The backside of our body lifts / pulls us up and the anterior side pushes, pushes us down? I had a thought of this last night and decided to mess around with this as I was drifting in and out of sleep, and boy was that a great cue to get everything moving! It seems like the more ways I can help my body remember and relearn what it’s capable of doing, the better set I am for the day?
Trial and error really is how we learn as children, so I might as well try to do the same? There’s endless possibilities to move, let’s keep that door open and keep up the movement!
I’ll tell ya the heavy compression on my legs is really doing some awesome work for awareness, activation, and movement for my legs! It’s a good facilitator, now how can I keep up the facilitating?
It was a lighter weekend for notes and recovery. Life seems to do that to us. Can’t be hyper focused all the time on projects. It’s good to take a break, come back refreshed and reinvigorated to help keep the momentum going!
Oh yeah this new interesting stool showed up this weekend! Better get moving on trying to mess around with that!?!
I’m like, chasing the pain? Is this true? Is there something to this idea? What is it about that sensation that I seem to like? What’s the deal with this? Chasing pain for long term goals? What are some other examples like this?
Lower knee inside activation and sensation?!?! Different areas are coming online!
At OT, New stool work! Floor work! Stabilized with spinal stim!
Exo work! Today for the first time in a WHILE! This was awesome! My body got fatigued!!
Tiredness to the upteenth degree tonite! Oof, better get some rest.
11/3/26 – Language of The Nervous System
My body last night was undergoing so many changes! I tried to let him squirm, kick, flex, extend, and squeeze! I know it’s not just simply “spasms” because it’s only after a huge day of movement! Sleep is definitely work! It’s hard! No ifs ands or buts about it! These compression shorts overnight too are helping compound the physical changes too! They really do help me feel locked in and out together so much more!
So interesting too, is sleeping on my left side?? Almost like that side was easier to sleep on?? Also left hip area feeling like a “cramp”? Right lower abdomen is engaging so much! These compression shorts help keep my body contained and pulled where he should be!
So many sensations! I know the new ones aren’t going to be supper pleasant, so I try to embrace them! Like the side knees!? This is new!
So much of my body too, while I contract my glutes, quads, legs for movement, are getting not just activation, but good small movement of the pelvis, knee, and feet! Gotta keep it up!!
Holding positions while the body is relaxed? What are the actual functions / mechanisms behind this idea?
Today had to be one of the smoothest and most normal feeling days of sensations for my legs to date! Things really smoothed out today?!
Standing frame in evening working on language of the nervous system! This was a wild time, my mind was really teeming with ideas and trying to find some new connections! Hey! Almost like my body, too? Constantly searching for new connections in my legs!
Either way, I really am seeing this important connection and distinction with how music is described, composed, read, and played and the idea that our nervous system could benefit from something similar? Almost, dare I say, the music of the body? If you can get your muscles to sing, what’s the first thing that you picture? Is it someone dancing? Because, you might not be alone with that idea! There’s really something more that can be done with how we describe, assign, and “compose” what is happening within us? Trying to figure out where to start with this, I have the excel sheet, but is it something else?
11/4/26 – Don’t Force It / Ride It
So I’m thinking about my muscles in my abdomen and core, and instead of trying to get them to relax, I’m working on getting them to contract with a “push or pull”? Not fight the spasm/ involuntary movement, not look at my legs, and feel it out? I’m keeping my core engaged because I can feel it, these higher rise compression pants are giving good proprioceptive feedback, and so I think about my hips and sides, and instead of just trying to let them go and relax, I’m trying to get them to contract and push my hips out, or open the hinge while pushing? What’s wild too, is it’s actually, slowly but surely, working?! And this is voluntary, I have to consciously be working both the glutes and hips plus core at the same time to get this to work!?
I’m also working on some side crunches too, my right side is activating very well! Trying to incorporate not just contractions, but some rotation / movement of the hips at the same time! Rotate, flex, extend, lateral push, trying to get these hips moving in all the directions!
It’s so fascinating how the abdomen, when I think “push/contract” even during the spasms, is actually straightening out my legs! Almost like I need to channel these spasms and shape them into the type of movement that I want / need them to do? But without forcing them? So instead of fighting them, I’m helping shape or facilitate them? I’m also doing this all night whenever I’m lying there awake, unable to drift off into sleep. It also doesn’t seem to affect my sleep / tiredness, really? Hard to say how many hours I’m doing this at night, but it’s definitely helping! It’s just difficult to carve out all day PT in this busy life that we live!
Legs are feeling so much everywhere with this light compression! I think I need some more pairs that are light compression, they help my legs feel like they can glide and move! I’ll have to explore that!
And it’s helping them activate more too! Almost like putting them into these positions is what’s helping facilitate the activation?!
What are our muscles doing while we sleep? They aren’t / can’t just be resting? Right? If our eyes under go rapid eye movement (REM), I have a feeling our muscles might do the same? Is there any research on this?
What is it about facilitating motion? Like CPR, Pilates, and helping facilitate movement before someone is fully able to do it on their own? CPR is really kickstarting someone’s heart?
Also, what the heck is the deal with Sinus Rhythms? Or the fact that the Sinoatrial node was discovered in a mole on a farm in England? How does that even happen?
My right toes were wiggling in ways that were not just normal spasms, this evening while I was stretching in figure 4? What is it with our bodies?
11/5/26 – Consolidating Thoughts
Very big consolidation morning!! I was COOKED last night! This was a huge day of movement yesterday! Getting my body to move, my whole body, by helping facilitate certain positions to allow my body to move the way he should, has been such an AMAZING experience! I have to direct the movement, regardless of the facilitation??!
So getting in the Pilates Step / Chair, having my pelvis supported, was giving my quads a chance to fire because they were in a position that was safe? And my upper body a chance to extend because it was also safe?! My quads haven’t felt this alive, engaged, active, and responsive yet, to date!!! This is incredible!!
My core is all on, glutes on, hip flexors leading into my quads, gastroc’s & soleus, and my feet are feeling so alive this morning!!
I don’t know what it is about THC / psylicibin, but I am wondering if it had some key role in movement development? I need to understand those pathways in our brain to better understand it! I wonder if I can also play with the some of this and see what happens maybe in a safe way?
Compression pants yesterday and thru the night too have made wonderful compounding effects!!!! Love how they are helping raise so much awareness!!
My micro contractions and contractions throughout the day never stop! Pretty much all day I try to make sure I am contracting and attempting to my all my muscles and limbs. I think this is helping! I gotta keep facilitating new movement!
Also, I DO NOT believe the small and limited studies on spinal cord healing. It’s too limited. Also, NO WHERE does it talk about hope, intentional hope, and directed hope towards / an individual has in one’s self? I think?! I have to do some research on this!
Working so much of the day with my feet on the floor with bushes unlocked is really giving my feet and legs a ton of opportunity to move! It’s honestly really incredible how this evening even, my legs are spontaneously kicking off the footplates and trying to get moving! I really gotta keep that up!
Just like all the intentional time activating, the intentional time to relax my body too, is doing wonders! My body needs all the reps it can get! Huge day of sensations and the standing frame session today has my body feeling so much standing activation!
There’s signals headed down there, it’s so fascinating that each day of movement and consolidation is causing such significant changes! Steady. Slowly. I’m moving more and more!
11/6/26 – Full Day
BIG MORNING BIG MORNING OF SENSATIONS, activations, and recovery!!!
Knees and hips and ankles are coming online like never before!!! I think this is because there’s actual movement happening at the joints, and my body is learning how to handle all this!
Compression wear and movement are really helping!!! I wonder what’s in store for today?!
How come words in a different language that are more clearly to hear, understand, and repeat, or the simpler words?
Busy and full day! Didn’t get a chance to breathe until after dinner! I was so tired! Even getting in the standing frame post dinner was a lot!
11/7/26 – What’s With The Vision?
My WHOLE BACK feels back online! Activation is at an all time high, sensation is thru the roof, and everything below is feeling like my upper back did months and months ago! I am feeling everything really ramping up!!
Keeping up with all the extension work I think is critical to try to get the C brace for January!?!
I was even thinking, about my vision, NOT just in walking…. I realized that in the morning, I never (or hardly) ever look at my feet while laying in bed supine. I figure, if this is the case, why am I doing this while in the chair, or doing other things? Make it a priority to get those feet on the ground, and keep that head up! Last afternoon while doing a walk, I noticed how important my head position was. My left leg swing seemed to not jostle my head around as much, and my head was much more stable. Meanwhile, my right leg swing thru would jostle my head, make it lean, make it do something to almost try and compensate for the swing thru? So what did I do for my last couple sets? Keep my head straight, and try not to move it at all! Let all the movement come from somewhere else, not my head!
So my first couple steps in this head up and straight position turned out to be mentally difficult, but it was some of my best steps of the day! Idk what it is about keeping an even keel with your head, but I gotta work this into more activities throughout the day, and especially while walking! Almost like if I’m gonna look down, it better to do something else than look at my legs!
Good day of rest, recoup, and consolidation. Body needs those days! I spent some time while heat masking my eye doing some eyes closed, balance work! Feet on floor, brakes unlocked, and eyes closed! Boy did that really get my whole body going! My eyes were twitching, head spinning, and all the sensations and activation in my legs to get things moving! Pretty wild, when you think about it? Wonder what’s all going on in there to get my quads to activate more while doing this?!
Standing frame for 2+ hrs while working on the basement Lift CAD! My legs and body are a bit fatigued after that.
Called it an early one. Callie and I got to spend some time together, running around and working on helping her feel better! It’s never a fun time being stuffed up, fever, and feeling like junk. Trying to help where I can.
It’s been a day! I read some of my poems to Callie. Turns out my mind is capable of some wild connections, it seems!? I hadn’t re-read a few of these and I was surprised myself! I think that there’s something in store for this outlet of words! We will see in these upcoming weeks! They seem to come out in the wildest moments, and put my head into a state I never knew I could do accurately recreate? What’s the deal with this? I will have to keep exploring this one!
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