5/31/26 – Full Day
I still for some reason don’t know which months have 31 days, and which have 30?
My lower body is full today! I wonder what will happen during the ride today!? More and more extension I’m hoping!
Wow. What a day! To think I’ve been up since 5:30am, and working till I got home is insane!?
I’m honestly shocked with how my body is feeling right now. Loose. Tired. Full.
Everything I have done today, has helped. Truthfully it’s hard to have days this full of activities I feel like? It’s wild because so much got done!
6/1/26 – 1000th Activity! Full Nights Rest!
Another May in the books. Goodness was that a busy month! And June is going to be the same! Lots of big changes coming our way too! Goodness!
This body is constantly changing! After the ride yesterday, I got up from the bike, and the fullness and upright ness I felt was so different and new?! Almost like I need to capitalize on this for gains in my legs sooner rather than later!
Also, I slept thru the night again! Maybe that’s the trick??! Electrolytes before bed?! This is so weird and peculiar, but I think it’s working!
Goodness are my legs buzzing with fullness today! Let’s see how it goes! Yesterday I got up so early, I left the house by 6:30am, on a Sunday!?
Just did 1000 activities on Strava?! lol. Makes me laugh, but also too not too shabby? Funny how we have social media for fitness lol! It’s very interesting, ..
First day of not wearing a hoodie for the whole day, for like the first day ever???….
You ever realize that seemingly best time to do something, is when you’re thinking about it? (Potentially… this is a hot take because I think everyone operates a little differently.) it just feels like for me, when I have an idea I want to jot down as a note, best time to do it is when I’m thinking about it. I do think my memory recall is improving as well, but for jotting down some fleeting thoughts, it seems like I like to do that when they happen. Like right now.
Why would rubbing/ deep massaging a certain area of your body, like your inner thigh, cause my ankle to plantar/ dorsi flex, or have my big toe wiggle up and down? What causes said electrical signal to actually complete the connection and allow the movement (reflexive or not?) there’s some type of electrical signal traveling, it’s not just “the muscle”. Something, even directly from the spinal cord, needs to communicate with the muscle to work?
Stimulus is causing it to react. Some stimulus is making it behave in the way that it is exhibiting. It’s not simply, “an errant signal” when specific stimuli cause a reaction. I’ve experienced too many signs or symptoms of my legs responding and producing very interesting and complex/ peculiar symptoms! On the Handcycle, braces, Exo, these forms of movement have all caused separate and different types of after symptoms. It’s interesting.
6/2/26 – Bodies Move in Most Interesting Ways
Legs are pretty full today. It’s interesting how on bike rides like yesterday, my legs feel more and more full as the ride continues. My knees and my quads were working so much, there’s something interesting going on with the repetitive movement, cardio, leg extension, and my breath work? Like I was noticing how I was feeling a squeeze in my knees during each cycle of the crank, and each inhale and exhale. When I was going up the hill, I would have to inhale and exhale during each push and pull stroke, and this seem to really make my feet knees, quads, glutes activate like crazy?
I guess that’s why I feel like I need to just keep up movement, and new movement on top of it. My body really is responding. I just know that not everybody can wait for all of the things that I’m working on in my life like I can. It’s not easy.
It’s really wild too actually bike ride as soon as I get back into the chair my whole body feels different. I feel my low back more, my body is activating more. I just wish I would be able to try other things besides just sit after big movement sessions like that?
I was just thinking about and discussing how are bodies move the most interesting ways. Reflexively. Not thinking about how to move our legs. Which is why I feel like I could wish I could think of some other ways help my legs just move to help me accomplish a task? Like I’m trying to just do the task that I need to do throughout the day engage my legs a little more throughout the day, but I feel like I’m just missing something critical? The bodies are always trying to do things in the most efficient way possible but I know that my legs are responding? Just be away for me to try to use my legs too right? Like on this hand cycle, I wasn’t expecting this to have had such large effects on my legs, but because they’re in an extended position, it’s almost like they “have to respond“? I guess that’s how the braces work too? And the Exo? Hmm have to think more about this?
Striking while the Iron’s hot?
Turns out, I’m really feeling my lower body engaging extremely well (or at least sensation of contractions), more and more when I am doing my cardio work! I can feel how the breath with each crank rotation is growing more and more!
I was feeling the asymmetry between my left and right lower oblique/ abdomen too, interesting to note.
6/3/26 – Intoxicating
To wake up each day with new activation, new contractions, in my low back, right quad, outer thigh?, is honestly incredible. You could almost use the word ‘intoxicating’. It’s like a drug that I cannot get enough of. Because it’s real, it’s my body, responding and waking up with more and more input and movement each day?
It’s hard because society almost forces someone in my position, in this liminal state of recovery, into whatever device gets them interacting with society again? I don’t want to be a burden, but it’s interesting also that it has to be this way?
Tons of activation in my hips, low back, glutes, and quads this morning! Each ride in oxygenating muscles in the position I want them to be in! It’s crazy! Who would have thought?
Let’s get moving, busy day as usual.
Hard, when there are so many things that get ya down.
Took mostly a rest day, today. I was pretty worked up.
6/4/26 – Heads Roll Off / Tiny Changes
It’s always interesting how each day comes and goes. They seem so quick, yet so fast all at the same time. It’s crazy.
My legs are really filling in, my feet are feeling an enormous amount, low back and hips are online, hips, abs, groin, quads, knees, hamstrings, outer calves and feet, you name it! This repetitive motion is really doing something for my body these days!!
I’m always fitting so much in each day. It’s really burning me out. It’s also tough when movement doesn’t get worked in. In some form. I gotta always be moving my body, and before it’s too late in the day, especially!
I don’t like talking about all the sadness up in my head. About how capable I was and how seemingly limited I am now. I don’t like to talk about the pain, discomfort, or headaches throughout the day. My head was spinning yesterday and I couldn’t slow it down. It sucked. It’s sad. I don’t wake up like that ever. It’s just so much going on, I think everything is getting to me.
(Sigh). It’s not very easy, but I know I don’t have it the hardest out there. Let alone I’m not the least capable. It’s hard because all of this is such an internal battle and struggle inside. It’s so tough. But I keep trying, it’s about all we can do sometimes.
Time to see what today will bring. My legs are kicking reciprocally in bed on my side. I can tell they want to get up.
I have a song stuck in my head,
“When it’s all gone
Something carries on
And it’s not morbid at all
Just that nature’s had enough of you
When my blood stops
Someone else’s will thaw
When my head rolls off
Someone else’s will turn
And while I’m alive, I’ll make tiny changes to earth”
- Frightened Rabbit – Heads Roll Off
That’s sometimes all we can do. Tiny Changes. Each day.
What happens when a person is forced to relearn an entire world? What happens to the astronauts? I haven’t talked about this subject in quite some time. That relearning process as an adult is extremely difficult. The astronaut comparison is one of the best I have? Because they have to relearn so much!
I’m shocked with how active my “under butt” or low glute is feeling right now?! It’s really interesting because my legs this evening have been feeling so much! My outer legs too, especially! But to feel so much of my lower body being active while I go into bed, is honestly astounding! Just makes me think how many reps it truly is doing a movement, and when it finally catches on.
The repetition of of some of the movements and tasks in doing has been extremely helpful as well! All these micromovements are really where it seems I’m working my neurological system? As in the more reps I do, the more it reinforces the signal? Im not sure, but I’m trying though!
It’s interesting how looking up, ahead, and focusing on the task at hand while trying to stand up and pivot out of the car is working? Interesting too, how my legs feel more planted and active while I do that? I’ve been trying to keep my head up, with my movements. Boy is it hard. Just trying each day.
6/5/26 – What Stimulus?
Low back?! Glutes?! Low abdomen being more open!? What is going on fellas?!?! I was really feeling the glutes kicking in like crazy last night on the low / under side!?! I wonder if this is some early signs of some taller rises!! I need to keep looking up!!
It’s really wild!? Sometimes I’m not even sure what the stimulus it is that I give my body to help him continue progressing and increasing sensation and activation? Maybe these past few lighter days gave my body a chance to rest? I need to get up in the braces soon to help consolidate all these changes!!
6/6/26 – Long Days, Better Nights
Stayed up late with Joey the night before! Goodness I’m tired!
Made it to my nephews Soccer game!! He played great! It was awesome to see him play and meet up with some of the family!
Dad helped pump my gas! Glad to have this tank taken care of!
Made it over to Willie’s new house for the first time! What a great spot for him and Hannah!! Love it!
Made it to the Wedding! What a beautiful day!
I was definitely a bit dehydrated earlier in the day, so the water and food definitely helped!
Long day, late night chat with my Callie!
Made it back home and chatted with Laura till some really late hour!! So much family to catch up with! The phone can only do so much! What a day!!
The Astronaut on Earth 
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