Nov 26th – Dec 2nd 2023: First Week on My Own!

Nov 26th

Definitely had some Mexican food!! Making chicken and dumplings tomorrow!!

Nov 27th

Wow, today I had both the new physical therapy and PM&R doctors appointments

Nov 28th

Woke up this morning feeling great! I got on my tum this morning and started to do some prone exercises! The are gonna be important for me to keep my hips loose and moving!

Laying prone allows me to get myself to squeeze my legs! All of the muscles in em! It’s great! Need to keep it up!

Spasms die down, feeling ramps up! The feeling in my quads, hamstrings, knees, lower legs, ankles, and feet all ramps way the hello up. The tingling also drops way down, I noticed it before I rolled over. It’s a reminder to me that I need to move my legs, do an exercise, it’s my legs way of reminding me that we are gonna be walking! And I gotta put the work in for that!

it’s definitely not easy doing things on your own! The small things we all take for granted, like being able to clear your plate, but your cup in the dishwasher, make a sandwich?! Yeah no simple feat. The idea that everything we do is more complicated than we give credit really does show how far we’ve come as a species. Without ever having something happen to make you think about these circumstances, it’s not a surprise that we all get so overwhelmed with everything that is going on in our lives.

To be able to live as a modern day human being, in today’s digital age, and function successfully, shows just how wild our bodies truly are.

To know that almost every encounter I have with another human being is shock and confusion, does really tell me how far it is that I’ve come.

Without ever taking time to appreciate and understand what is going on inside ourselves, it’s really hard to be able to take time to understand and appreciate what’s good not just in ourselves, but the world in general.

Being able to take time to do the things you need to do, like eat, shit, shower, and consciously being there for each one of these activities, really does take time. Without having a job to rush me, it allows me the opportunity to go thru an action and really feel it, understand it.

I’m not sure of most things, but I am learning quite a bit about myself. And maybe that’s all that matters?

The amount of pins and needles, as well as tingling has been influx. Without

Nov 30th

Well winter is here and I’m not ready! lol

This is hard. I can’t lie. I’m lying in bed, shivers up the wahoo, legs feeling wild, can’t hardly work up the urge to move at all.

It’s really tough. I don’t know why this is a thing. It’s really hard to try to rationalize. It’s also really hard to express and to understand why this has happened. I guess this is one of those moments that you just don’t feel so hot.

I mean, you are allowed to not feel good. It’s okay. It’s also really hard. And that’s okay. Everything you do is tricky, and that’s okay. Legitimately every thing that is done does get easier tho. But getting over this feeling is extremely hard. When you are this cold and uncomfortable it’s really hard.

Laying in my back to get my hip flexors stretched was good, and bad. Too long in one position isn’t the best thing for you

I wish I didn’t have chills, and I wish I could feel good. It’s so damn hard.its okay, it’s all gonna be worth it! You’re still healing! Don’t forget! You have such a long ways to go!!!

It’s okay!

It’s okay!

It’s fucking okay!

I can’t always be tough, but it sure is rough, and I’m gonna do what I can to make it through! Wish me luck I’m gonna try my hand at getting up!!!!

Dec 2nd

Making a routine. It’s finalized. The idea of going into everything so haphazardly isn’t doing me any good. It’s chaotic. And it’s making me feel wild.

The amount of sensation in my legs and movements in my legs is steadily increasing!

My knees and calves really are joining the party and I can’t even being to describe all the tightness I have been having.

My back is really tight as well, and I noticed how sore my shoulders were this morning, need to get to the gym!

Stretching twice a day is going to be important!! My legs right now after having stretched are laying flat! Which is cool! They are relaxing and I need to get myself standing at home!

So like, the pain of it all and difficulty of it really sets in when they are both compounded. When you’re in pain it’s one thing to do relatively simple and easy tasks. When you feel fine and you have to do something difficult, it makes doing the hard thing more palatable. But when you have your compound those two things together,

It becomes so difficult