October 9th 2023 – Focus

Oct 9th

So when I wake up in the morning a choose to take an opportunity to talk thru my thoughts, it is a way for me to gather them as well. Something I have Learned is that it isn’t quite as common as I may think, to have so many thoughts running thru my head. But when we take time to slow down, breathe, collect those thought, it makes a world of difference, regardless who you are.

Realizing and validating that I have so much feeling and motor function is important for me because it helps me make a plan to address those feelings, motor functions, and address the ones that are maybe not as significant. Understanding that my spinal cord is healing, the inflammation is going down, and signals can travel to my upper portions before the lower portions allows me to focus my thoughts and energy on those areas first.

My back and abdomen are getting strong. They can not only help support myself in passive situations, but also when I’m sitting upright in the chair! This is a newer development as of last week, and I’m now working on lifting my torso up and down to help work those abs and lower back muscles!

My sense of hunger, bowel, and bladder are more significant to me everyday! Which has been great! My independence with them as well has been greatly improved!

I was laying prone yesterday and that was the first time that I had felt on my own my left glute firing!! Which has been amazing!

The differences between my left and right legs seem to be going away, and the size differences are getting less noticeable!

When I get some relief is when I can actually feel all of my stomach, the spasms slow, and I can take a breath from my abdomen without having all the extra noise down there. The analogy being a TV static signal, and it’s slowly going away as the signal is increasing is actually great because that’s how I feel in my own body as well. The static is just really uncomfortable and not quite as easy to look at as from a tv. But do TV’s even do that anymore?!

Turns out I’ll have to pause for a bit and work on getting myself ready! I have more plans to be more organized everyday. That’s been a difficult area to focus on or give attention to when I’m in this much pain or trying to do the other things throughout the day, but it’s gonna be worth it!

It was really wild too….. mentally, I could really feel and ‘sync up’ my leg muscles today

I also was able to “lean forward” during the bike, and I was able to grab the handlebars

So playing my guitar has been a lot of fun! It’s just….. my ribs and chest are way too sore to let that happen right now…. They really aren’t liking this…..

I’ll have to let my ribs heal up before I get back to the guitar!