October 7th 2023 – Encapsulation

Oct 7th

Have more courage to take your own shits in life.

That quote almost brought me to tears reading that from a fellow who has overcome such a significant amount of adversity. I really am doing that personally myself. And it’s hard. And I want and need to remember why I’m trying to do these things!

The sensations in my legs and especially my knees after doing kneeling stands yesterday, with no stimulation, and no support, is truly inspiring for me. I need to keep this up!

This feeling of tingling is very much a prevalent force that I am able to experience! Shoot I just had a sneeze and I really don’t feel like my ribs are going to collapse! Each one gets better and better!

The feeling I get in the morning of a new or specific area really does feel like a surrounding or encapsulation of that point. I notice my knees for instance really so feel like they are getting a tremendous amount of blood flow, and it’s almost like a mini hug almost? Like a certain tightness that’s also really supportive and warm feeling.

I do like getting to acknowledge all of these changes, and it really does help inspire me throughout the day! Really there is just one thing that even has the potential of being me down!

Using my mornings to feel my body, clear, and then gather my thoughts does really help me. I do feel more clear in the mind, and it really has been helpful being able to get up and approach the day. Moving from a time where it really was hard to wake up, and try to just even get up, to now basically doing that on my own, has meant I’m slowly getting to a point where I can approach more and more things!

Each day, more feelings, more motor function! More opportunities.

I’ve really noticed the significant changes i have been able to make, and it’s the small things that really matter!

I really do feel that much more grateful for the simplest things sometimes. I really don’t want to forget these feelings, because it truly does keep me humble, hopeful, and eager to do more.

Being able to roll myself on my side, which in August, early September, I couldn’t do on my own. Since my hips are strengthening, and my legs are responding to my inputs, I can actually roll to my left and right side! I do still need a decent spot to hold on to tho.