October 4th 2023 – “Does the Real Jim Carey Exist”

Oct 4th

What is interesting, is I’ve been having a “slow down” of the spasms and an increase of fullness, tightness, and tingling sensation in both legs! I feel these changes happening each day as I wake up. The tightness in my hips and the calming down of my stomach and abdomen makes the days and moving around much easier!

I do feel the feelings and sensations in my knees growing each day as well, with the feeling and fullness around my legs being much more significant! Each time someone lays their hands on my legs, even if it’s me, I feel it!

It’s almost like I need to continue to think and expand what my legs are able to feel and do! It’s really interesting to think about that, and how it is still changing, but I know there’s so much potential!

What I’m noticing as well is I’m trying to consciously slow down and relax my left leg, which spasms and has much more significant tone than my right leg. The groin muscle actually has relaxed! And my leg lays flat! But my hip and quad is still tight. So my leg will lay flat on its “side” but the hip is still contracted.

Putting words, thoughts, and emotions to all of the things happening to my legs really has been helping me wrap my head around all the changes as well. There’s so much to keep up with, I do feel like I’m learning each day!

Why do my legs spasm? I can get it to happen when I take a deep breath? Does it have to do with tight muscles? I understand that it’s a muscle I don’t have control over, but it seems like there is something else affecting it, because now I’m feeling in my leg when it happens! Not just above the injury level! I’ll dig into that a little bit!

Slowing down and being grateful for where I am in this journey is something I’m thinking about, healing is something I need to not forget about!

One day at a time, I’m getting closer and closer to getting back my life and getting back to Milwaukee!!

Reading about Jim Carey in the book I’m reading, and seeing him in the video “Does the Real Jim Carey Exist” just shows me how much he believes in himself. It’s honestly incredible. It makes me have to think about what I’m doing and what I can do.

Idk 🤷‍♂️ it’s a wild place and a wild time. Maybe I’m trying to make too many connections in too many places

There might be something to it all, but I’m also not sure 🤷‍♂️

WOW!!!! It’s been so many months since I’ve been able to try and actually do this myself!!!! I actually got results from my bowel program!!!! It was just a lil but it’s a start!!! Each day I gotta keep going!!!