October 3rd 2023 – Reese’s Puffs

Oct 3rd

Well, for all the great progress updates, it’s hard to leave out when I’m feeling so bad. I’ve had a pretty good stretch of not feeling so crappy, but this morning and during the night reminded me a lot of the earlier days, when my ribs were a lot more tender.

Usually I haven’t been in this much pain waking up, but I am today, everything from breathing to much, moving, talking hurts. But what is nice is the amount of other sensations I have to pick up on, more on that in a bit.

It did start last night with an uncomfortable feeling in my back, and has kinda manifested into other areas and feelings as well. I definitely can feel the tightness in my legs, and the sore almost “asleep” feeling throughout my entire right leg. My feet are extremely tingly, and I can honestly say I’m glad I’m not cold!

Just did a yawn and that did not feel good either….. I did take a pain pill to help manage this all, so maybe that’s trying to kick in.

From 2-4 my blood ox levels were down again…. Maybe contact the doctor? I was relatively restless all night, which doesn’t help these matters. What’s also really interesting is how the watch registers my “awake” state in this bed, me lying there awake but with eyes closed and trying to fall back asleep/ meditating a bit as REM sleeping, it’s kinda interesting. Not entirely sure what to make of that

Also, the urge to Pee and get up in the morning to do so is stronger than ever, it’s quite the motivating force, and I honestly do have a harder time remembering if that was the case before the accident? Usually I always went pee first thing, but I don’t recall having such strong urges? Hmm 🤔 that’s always a tough one!

So my mid section/ torso, my back, are feeling sufficiently awful this morning,but the tingling hasn’t slowed down! I’m trying my best. Idk if this is from the fall on Saturday night or what? Delayed reaction? But I’ll have to be mindful of that today.

I’m always trying to think about some of the good in this, with more pain is more sensation. So that’s a good thing. It’s tough and it’s sometimes hard to bear, but never feeling anything is the hardest feeling of all, so I’ll deal with this for now! Let’s see what today brings!

It’s definitely a feeling I remember from the early days in the hospital, tight chest, and inability to really take a bigger breath. It’s very difficult to try and get a deeper one right now. It’s just overall really sore/ tender when that happens. But that’s how it was the whole time I was in the rehab hospital, tight chest and very shallow breathing.

I think laying on my chest and trying to get the tightness out of my core has really kinda “aggravated” everything too…. Hmm 🤔 standby for more info

So on the car ride home today, the sensations of feeling “full and ready to go” were quite significant! I definitely am feeling that! Also, I definitely felt when I was sitting on one of my “plums” which allowed me to try to reposition and adjust!

Honestly, taking a moment to reflect, I really appreciated my legs. I appreciate the heck out of how they kept me so happy and healthy. By going for runs in the morning with Max, I experienced some of the most Joy in my day! It kept me healthy, and got me hungry, and allowed me the opportunity to get in better shape! And that’s how I feel about biking as well!! It really helped me solidify a connection with my body, with my legs, and a mechanical world too. Being able to use my legs to power something that allows me to travel over 2x the speed I could sprint for hours on end is actually incredible! Also, it allows me to give joy to people around that I know and love! I get to take Callie for bike rides, something she hadn’t been able to get the chance to do really, before! I got John and Jill back riding and having the time of their lives together! I fixed up my moms bike to get her moving again! Shoot, I gave Paul one of my older road bikes, to get him moving!

I really do appreciate these things so much, because they helped create a better version of myself than I was before I was really doing these things everyday. I appreciate that so much, and I will never forget that. I really appreciate them, cuz I’m growing to be a better version of myself for me and everyone around me.

Okay, so how do people actually pronounce this…. Reesepuffs as one word? Or Reese’s Puffs? Cuz I go the first route, and want to know why I’m wrong. Please tell me. It’s just so much easier to say!