October 1st 2023 – Moving

Oct 1st

So I woke up this morning feeling more and more in the legs! The sensations are continually changing to a more “normal” feeling and I notice how tired and tight more and more muscles are! Unfortunately I’m not able to be “up” for endless hours, but nobody is! And that’s okay.

The amount of patience and humility you have to express is truly incredible because without those qualities, you get stuck and aren’t able to receive the help you need. When I had the edible yesterday I definitely thought about that, and how it really has been humbling for you to have to go through. I don’t ever want to forget these feelings of gratitude, because I do think that as I’m healing up I’m also getting to work more on my personal self than I ever have before! I know that this is such a process and I do appreciate the support I’ve gotten, and having a special person to be able to share so much of my thoughts and feelings with has really inspired and helped me so much as well.

What I noticed this morning is that rolling over is becoming less of a process where I have to “assist” by readjusting my legs, and my legs are actually following on their own! Truth be told I think this morning I can actually feel my legs being recruited with this process too!! Okay yeah, this is actually happening….

Okay, this was still huge! I have never before touched my B-hole!!!!! Not in that position and never on a komode! I feel like I am getting really close! That literally was the closest I had gotten at this point ever!!! Everyday, I gotta try everyday!!

What’s wild today too, is I got into the bed today with no supervision or anyone around! I will admit I had Callie on the phone so I had someone on emergency stand by lol 😂