September 28th 2023 – Inspiration

Sept 28th

Today was a good morning of actual restfulness. Going from full nights of fighting to try to stay asleep, I have actually been able to sleep fully thru the night, and I slept in a bit more than usual!!

What’s been most interesting is waking up legitimately feeling refreshed. It’s been invigorating! Looking at my sleep scores on the Garmin from pre-accident to now, I’m finally almost* getting to a point where sleep is actually restorative.

Feeling and sensations in my legs grow each day, and the feeling of normalacy is growing in my hips, my abdomen, and in my lower back!! I am not sure when all the strength is going to fully return, but it’s all on the rise! My sitting balance, and core support is becoming more significant each passing day!!

From the depths of my toes, to the muscles in my butt, I’m feeling them. They are there. I feel like I need to concentrate and focus on activating them all! I can feel it in my left hamstring or my right glute much more significantly than some of the other areas, I’ll have to focus on that!

My hips going down into my sides of the leg are becoming better to function as well! I can really feel the motor functions in my right glutes!

Getting in and out of the bed and the car has never been so easy before! Shoot, I even get myself rolled over without hesitation!

It was really sweet, seeing the picture Laura printed of me finishing my first half marathon! I was pretty cooked that day! I was pretty happy to have finished in an 1:50! Not too fast, not too slow! Not too bad for it being my first half marathon all that time ago! I remember when I signed up, I hadn’t really even tried to do a run 10miles long! I was nervous! But I was ready to push myself, I knew I could do it!

Trying to push our bodies to the point of complete and utter exhaustion is something that not everyone gets to try or experience. I have been really fortunate that all this time spent running and biking with max has prepared me for all the physical discomfort and unease I’m currently working thru on the daily! Like, I can always draw analogies back to going for a run, and I really am lucky to have that. I can’t wait to get back on my two feet and do that again!

Looking at the image of myself running, seeing my goofy knees, and my bulging quads really gets me happy. I really like my goofy knees, they are so good at running! I had a really good neutral gait, and I want to get that back! Is that so much to ask?