September 19th 2023 – Metal Rods

So, yesterday marked the 4 month mark of the accident. Which is tough to realize. But at the same time, it does feel really good to have made as much progress as I have! And still am! So that’s reassuring!! It’s a lot of work, but envisioning myself walking, in a new future self, is where I am at.

I think that the sensations of riding in the car yesterday and being more “warm and fuzzy” are progressing, I significantly feel them up my entire right leg, starting in my toes, top and bottom of my foot, and progressing thru the ankles, lower calf and tibias, my knee, and then wholly surrounding my upper leg. This then leads very well into my glutes and my hips, and the hips I’m getting significantly more sensations, which at this point is hard to differentiate with the rest of my leg because it’s all coming back on the right!

My left leg, has been a different story, but I’m trying to bridge that. The pins and needles has been changing similarly to my right side, and I feel it in my toes and bottom of my foot, and maybe only slightly less in the ankle. The shin on the left is significantly feeling sensations, as is the knee. The upper thigh/ leg is only slightly behind as well, as is the glutes. But! The hips, obliques, and abdomen on the left are really engaging!

So the change in sensation from “pins and needles” to “ a warm leg” has been what I’m experiencing, and it’s been incredible! The smaller little areas that I can feel the blood flowing, or a little change, has been significantly different as well! It’s not that it it’s all back for sensations, but my right leg is feeling so much.

My spasms are significantly reduced, and I can even attempt to get my legs in and out of the bed much easier than previously attempted!

My back is also feeling so much more, coming in the form of mild-significant pain from the metal rods. It’s not unbearable, but moderately uncomfortable. I am still able to get to sleep at night tho! And my bed mobility is on the rise as well!

For my ribs, I’ve noticed a change in symmetry, where I didn’t before. I notice know that my right and left side expand together as one, and being a more uniform pressure to my chest. I specifically remember this was not the case when I was in the hospital, I could barely draw a breath from my chest. So there’s still pain associated with breathing, a certain tightness with each breath, but it’s manageable, and I’m very hopeful! The right side is still significantly spicier than the left, making that always be interesting!

And the return of sensations to my mid section! Hunger, an increase in appetite, a feeling of “fullness” associated with needing to empty my bladder, and then the feeling of needing to “go” are all present! Which has been extremely promising as well! I’m having dreams of standing up and being able to let it loose! Which is extremely hopeful.

So now as I’m able to fully make it thru the night, get a full nights sleep, and am now working thru getting myself up at a reasonable time to straight cath, this all has been so promising to me! Yes, I feel the metal in my back, but it’s been an indicator to me that I’m still healing! Im working on these things!

So now to continue my journey thru attempting to get my life back. Which has been a process in and of itself! But I have so many things to look forward to! And I’m ecstatic for that! Envisioning me being able to be with the one that I love, after a day spent actually working, and having the opportunity to discuss the happenings of our day brings me an immense joy, that fills me with such an eagerness and hopefulness that has been a guiding light thru all of this as well. I’m really fortunate. I’m still here, and I’m still kicking!

My family right now has also been very helpful, with conversations being another thing that helps sustain me. I’m just a very fortunate soul! My brothers have been essential in helping me continue to develop my strength, and my mom has been great, to say the least! By having these conversations I feel like a real person again!

I’m going to continue to work on the sensations I do have! And work on my hips and surrounding areas by being on all fours! I’m seriously re-living a child’s experience learning and working on walking!